Christopher Davis – My LDS Journey
My name is Christopher and I grew up LDS. For the first 12 years of my life, it was truly beautiful. I found it to be, for the most part, uplifting and inspiring. I still get teary eyed when I hear or sing songs like “I’m Trying to Be Like Jesus” because I am grateful for the feelings of love and compassion and general goodness that were instilled into me as a child. I do not regret a moment of being in the church. If I could go back in time and change it, I would not. I believe that I have always been exactly where I need to be, and that along the path I have learned important lessons that will further serve me where I am headed.
However, as Carl Jung said, “Thoroughly unprepared, we take the step into the afternoon of life. Worse still, we take this step with the false presupposition that our truths and our ideals will serve us as hitherto. But we cannot live the afternoon of life according to the program of life’s morning, for what was great in the morning will be little at evening and what in the morning was true, at evening will have become a lie.”
I state in my video that being gay turned out to be one of the best things that ever happened to me. It sparked within me a deep desire for truth, and a yearning to love myself where before I had placed judgement. Although it was definitely the initial catalyst, my love and attraction for other men was far from the only reason that I left the church. Over the years since I began to leave the church, I have learned many other things about this magical life that have served me well, the most important of which, is that which I was told to worship outside of myself, actually lies within me, and that it was a lack of recognizing and loving that part of myself that caused me such pain.
I discovered that the greatest thing I could do for myself to heal the pain that I had accumulated along the path was to reprogram the indoctrination that I had been brainwashed into, whether intentionally (religion) or by default (things I learned from parental behavior). It was these faulty belief systems that were causing such pain. I learned that I could reprogram my own mind, and that I could replace self hatred with love. The more I intentionally decided to love myself unconditionally, the more I loved everyone and everything else around me, and life has been a spectacular unravelling of things I never knew to be possible as a child ever since.
The ideals I have learned have changed my life from a seemingly endless abyss of depression and suffering (I’m not being dramatic, my pain was that deep) to such an exciting, uplifting celebration of joy and appreciation in such a profound way that I have intended my purpose in life to be to share what I have learned with others, primarily through my music. My dream is to bring to as many people as possible, through my music, the idea that when you truly begin to love yourself, miracles happen in your life, and that you are way more powerful than you have been led to believe.
As far as the church and almost all religion in general, I believe it is a lie. A wolf in sheep’s clothing. A overall huge detriment to society with greater setbacks than benefits. However, I also believe it’s not my job to convince anyone of this. Just as it served me at one point in my life, I believe it serves others where they are on their path as well. We each have a compass inside of us that guides us where we need to be, and I have learned that change really only comes from within one’s personal desires. I still believe the church will fall apart sooner than later as more people begin to question that unfulfilled part of thier soul that they can’t quite put their finger on. That part of you that realizes. You ARE God.
I so look forward to the direction our planet is headed. I do not believe for a second that we are headed towards an apocalyptic display of global entropy. I believe that things are improving exponentially in many different ways, and that people will continue to come into their own power, and instead of making decisions based on fear, following the love and excitement within that will help us all create here and now, the heaven we have been seeking.
Christopher’s recommended videos to check out:
Science Saved My Soul
Through These Godless Eyes
You Can Heal Your Life
My Music Channel